Reinvention After Destruction

"You can never wreck me because I can always reinvent myself"

That's my perception about myself when I'm broken. Instead of wrecking myself to prosecute their conscience, I'd rather give a sweet revenge and make them realized what they have lost, and that I can be better off without them.

Former Disney star, Miley Cyrus and Hunger Games actor, Liam Hemsworth called off their engagement, ending a four-year relationship. Cyrus notably said that she could finally be the bad bitch she really was, now that she and Liam are no longer together. The 20 year-old singer and actress reinforced herself with platinum hair, tattoos and minimal clothes, a far cry from her days as a teenage star in Hannah Montana in Walt Disney, and now, appeared undressed, wild, and aggressive while riding on a wrecking ball on her music video "Wrecking Ball". She's too evocative with her lyrics and behavior which was unexpected and that nobody was ready to see her that way.

Analyzing the simplicity of the music video and its very own lyrics, it's pretty obvious that Cyrus was totally dismayed on her relationship with Liam. The usage of wrecking ball represents Liam's love which can wreck someone's femininity and that's the thing she had experienced. If she has ever appeared far from her wholesome image, that's to show that she's in servitude of Liam back then and is now a rebel chic and a fighter who's trying to get her life back in a process of change. Her aggressive behavior in the MV only shows that she's over with the grief and that being wild is her basic way to cope with the break up. Her performance was disturbing and alarming, considering that she has youth fans and that it might affect the fan base, but she still pursued with the thing she believes was ethereal to survive the heartache. Her tattoos represent her feelings which she believes will suffice for the words she couldn't utter or express in a verbal manner.

You can never tell the person's own assessment regarding changes, whether for his or her betterment or for worse. We have different perceptions on how we want to lead our lives and what pathway is better to take, whether it looks flagrant in our humanity or not.

I've never been a fan of Miley. I never liked her, and I actually hate her because I don't find her beautiful, seriously. But now, I can say that she's pretty much endearing now for being tough and true to herself. Some were disappointed and some were still supportive about the sudden alteration of things about her, from image down to her ego. I see Miley's passion and her eagerness to survive the depression and that makes her awesome.

I'm posting this entry to cite my interpretation about break ups.

Everyone can reinvent themselves 'cause that's innate. Inadvertently, you'd realize that once you aim to get out of that box and start anew. I have experienced a lot of rejections in life which are alike anyhow with the break-up. Both undergo in a series of pain and heartache but with different extremities. In Cyrus' case, she has come across her limitations and undressed herself with an impulsive character. Her particular way to show Liam how outmoded she'd become after their break up is by being uninhibited, which I perfectly respect if she feels secure in that realm. Furthermore, I understand the word "sweet revenge". Meaning, showing others that you can be better off without them, and giving them the extreme regret of leaving you, by being happy, successful and good-looking.

 (Let's all accept and admit that people do look on our outer or physical aspect, that it has an amount of fascination, and the personality comes next and so on. That's why desiring to look good and physically fit is a must once you're broken.)

Changing oneself doesn't mean being someone you are not supposed to be, or you're not meant to be, but changing oneself is about realization and is a continuous struggle to improve yourself inevitably.

If Miley's art to get rid of the pains is her new character, whether depiction or real, I salute that! Crave to live well!

Now Playing : Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus

:  Unattended

: Migs Lorenzana

The Story of Pichi Pichi

Ever heard of a story wherein the heading isn't particularly describing its periphery, but it serves as the bridge to know where it all started? If not, check this one.

I should not continue writing this entry since I've already put a period with my "love on purpose" stamp, and I should really stop giving so much attention on this. When I say stop, literally, stop! But I've decided to have a little diary again about this one. I just don't know how to release all the "kilig" and the momentum of my feelings because I can't tell it to my closest friends one by one, I mean before I make it to the last person, I am dehydrated and it would sound like scripted, and I really have to share it, I can't afford to lose my self-control if I just nourished this alone, so I gues, creating this entry will do.

Alright! Tagalog or English? 

As usual, you can really feel the momentum in Tagalog since I am a Filipino.

September 24, 2013 and there's a Food Exhibit at College of Home Economics, both FPE and HRM participate and they really offer nice delicacies. Actually, di naman boring, mas boring yung nakaraang nutrition week, walang E-X-C-I-T-E-M-E-N-T. 

Around 11AM, bumalik kami ng school galing labas. I'm with some girl-friends, ng mapansin namin na medyo nagsikip na sa tarangkahan ng CHE. Ang daming tao, nagkakagulo, yun pala open na yung mga booth ng different participating students. May bumibili na ng ticket, nagpapareserve at blah blah. Basta nagsikip ang daloy ng trapiko ng mga estudyante at di ko alam kung ano'ng nakakatawa sa pagpaparegister. May pangkiliti yata yung ballpen na hawak nila o talagang mahaharot lang sila. Nang malapit na kami sa registration table, nakita ko siya, si ano, si Mica. We're not heading there for a registration pero nasa gilid kasi yung daan papuntang building namin, so madadaanan talaga namin sila. Nagse-sales talk si Mica, nanghihikayat na bumili sa booth nila. Gulat ako! Kung tatanungin mo kung pano'ng gulat, wag na! Di ko rin marere-enact kasi virtually tayo nag-uusap. Basta nagulat, yung nanlaki mata mo at sabay atras. Kasama ko si bestfriend Marj maglakad, habang nakalampas na dun yung iba pa naming kasama.

Me: Ay p*ta**i**!!! Si Mica! Bestfriend atras muna tayo!!

Marj: Teka! Sila Queenie.

Me: Nandun na yun. Wait lang, di ako makakadaan. Contained na ko!

Marj: Tara na! Kunwari di mo na lang napansin.

Hindi!! Di naman talaga yan nasa isip ko during that time. Kasi ganito yan. Pag liko namin sa tarangkahan, bumungad na agad siya sa'min pero di niya ko napansin kasi may pinipilit siyang lalake na bumili sa kanila. Yes! Kailangan lalake lapitan niya kasi dun tatalab ang charm niya. Sino ba naman kasing lalake ang hihindi pag pinakiusapan ka na niya? Kulang na lang pakyawin mo yung product sa booth nila dahil sa kanya. Feeling ko nga siya talaga inassign mag invite ng consumers kasi alam nila na pag si Mica na kumarinyo brutal sa mga estudyante, kasama na ko, ay naku! Mabilis pa sa alas-kwatro ubos na tinda nila. 

Going back, ayun na nga, umatras kami, kasi kinakabahan din ako at may gusto kong mangyari. Alam naming nangiinvite siya kaya inintay naming mawala yung nakaharang sa daan, sabay lakad kami ni Marj papalapit sa kanya para maharang din kami at magplead siya. Saktong paglapit ko napatingin siya sakin at ayan na!!!!!

Mica: Uy!! :)

Me: Uy! :)

Mica: Bili ka naman sa'min.

Me: Sa booth ninyo? Ano ba tinda ninyo?

Mica: Basta! Bili ka na please, bili na kayo nung kasama mo.

Me: Magkano ba yan?

Mica: Wait! May ticket ka na ba? May stub ka na?

Me: Uhmm, wala pa yata?

Marj: Ako meron na bestfriend

Me: San mo nakuha yan?

Marj: Binigyan kami kanina, 10 pesos lang.

Me: Ah, eh mura lang. Ayos ah!

Siyempre masaya ko kasi nilapitan ako at inaya niya ko. Medyo ambisyoso pero pwede na din yun, kahit hindi patungkol sa mga pangarap ko for us, at least, dahil lang sa tinda nila, nag please siya sa'kin at bilang ako'y dakilang inlove talaga, sige lang ako. Go lang ng go sabi nga ng globe.

 PWEDENG MAGMURA? EH P*T*NGI**!! KUKUHA LANG KAMI NG MINION STUB KAILANGAN TALAGANG HAWAKAN YUNG FORCEP KO?! PWEDE NA KONG MAMATAY, AS IN MISSION ACCOMPLISHED NA KO NUN EH!! HAHAHA.

Ang tanging gusto ko lang ay batiin niya ko pero yung may kasamang hawa ng kamay at "please" ay! Heaven's with me lang kanina nasabi ko. Tama pala ang diskarte ko. Di sumablay, sumobra pa nga ang balik. Hahaha

Me: Magkano ba yung ticket?

Mica: Ayun! (sabay turo sa paper notice sa table, kung saan naka indicate yung prices. P1.00 per stub. P20.00 one pack of stub. P10.00 ticket. )

Me: Alin diyan?

Mica: Yung 20 na please!

Me: Wow! Mahal naman! (wala sa loob ko ang gumastos kasi ako ang pinaka kuripot sa klase)

Mica: Sige na please, minsan lang to saka tulong mo na sa'min.

Me: O sige na nga, twenty pesos lang naman pala! Kukunin ko yan (nawala sa loob ko yung pagkakuripot ko kasi siya na nakiusap at handa akong gumastos kahit 100 pesos pa yun just for her)

Marj: Napasubo ka bestfriend

Me: Oo nga eh pero okay lang, as in super okay lang! Siya naman 'to eh, at para sa kanya :)

Marj: kinikilig ka ha!

Me: Sino bang hindi? Di ko 'to expect saka jusko!! Hinawakan pa ko sa kamay :">

Marj: ayiiiieee!!!

Oo! Yung focus ko nasa point na yun kung saan hinawakan niya ko sa braso at kamay. I didn't really expect that. Naiwan si Marj malapit sa table kasi binibigyan yata siya ng stub. Samantalang nakuha na namin yung isang pack ng stub, binigay sa'kin ni Mica. Nakatayo ako kasi iniintay ko si Marj pero bigla ulit ako'ng hinawakan ni Mica sa braso ko at hinatak, akala niya kasi nawala na si Marj, kaya wag ninyong iisipin na kabastusan yung ginawa niyang biglang paghatak sa'kin, saka ineenjoy ko naman ang moment namin. Another gulat! Woooohhh!!

Nung mga oras na yun nagpapahatak talaga ko sa kanya. Pag dating sa mga sitwasyong ganito, nagiging mautak talaga ko, nakakaisip ako ng paraan para mamaximize yung oras at maging worth it for us.

Sa isip ko: "Sige lang, hatakin mo pa ko, magpapahatak ako. Lulubusin ko tong mga sandaling to, kunwari hinahatak mo ko kasi magkadate tayo. Hala! Hatak pa Mica"  

Habang hatak niya ko, di ko pansin yung mga tao, basta ang nakikita ko lang, siya, yung kamay niya na nakahawak sa kamay ko at ako na mukhang tanga sa pagkakangiti ko na abot-tenga. Hanggang sa nakarating kami sa booth nila, kasunod si Marj.

Mica: Bilin mo na 'to

Me: Ano yan?

Mica: Pichi pichi.

Me: Magkano naman yan?

Mica: 20 lang, yung hawak mong stub na isang pack yung katumbas.

Me: Eh masarap naman ba yan?

Mica: Oo naman, promise, please!

Me: Oh sige, I'll get that, pag to di masarap ibabalik ko ha

Mica: Di yan, masarap yan. Promise (sabay taas ng left hand)

Me: Joke lang. Alam kong masarap to. Favorite ko to (dudugtungan ko sana ng. "Masarap to kasi ikaw nagbigay sakin")

Mica: Yes! Thank you :)

Eh bigla kaming nagulat kasi yung mga tao sa loob nag "AYYYIIIEEEE". Bakit? May ano? Bumili lang naman ako ng pichi pichi ha? Haha

Ang pichi pichi, haaaay! DFi ko naman talaga favorite. Kinailangan ko lang sabihin para kahit papano may tuwa ng kaunti. Kailangan ko talagang gumawa ng mga bagay bagay para sa kanya.

Anyway, nag enjoy ako. Sobra ko'ng naaliw and that made my day. Masarap din yung pichi pichi, di siya nagsisinungaling. May custard kasi. And kung di man masarap, kakainin ko pa rin kasi galing sa kanya. 

Pangako ko, di ko itatapon yung box ng pichi pichi na ito. Itatago ko lang 'to. At dito nagmula ang title ng entry na 'to, dulot ng dakilang PICHI PICHI :D

Sorry if it ended up in the house like this. I put it inside my bag and being careless carrying it, I assumed it was tapped and rolled inside.

Now Playing : Today my life begins - Bruno Mars

: Pichi Pichi

: Migs Lorenzana 

                 

Man of Innocence: Jeremy Rohmer

Did I hear him say "I'm actually a virgin." during his interview? If ever, that makes him innocent at all.

This newest cycle of ANTM is still upstaging for me. When cycle 18 was rolled over the camera, it never became as glamour as the past cycles, and 17 was actually the last haul of the competition, and with that, thanking the contestants should be given, because these contestants are the residue of the show that pulls the viewers. Cycle 20 composes of goodlooking competitors, whether guys and girls.

Talking about Jeremy Rohmer, he's really my rooster, the youngest of all the guys. I will root for him. If you see Jeremy, that's him, I mean everything you'd see in and on him is all his worthy. He's the ideal winner of this season, there could be no other male contestant but this dude. I know that Cory is very flexible and versatile, he can really reinvent himself 'cause he's a gay, and that makes him as the toughest competitor, but still, Jeremy is a total package that can really represent the "Guy" in the competition.

I'm expecting a lot from him as he takes his photo shoots on wheel. But I can't seem to identify why he struggle at times. I'd like to think that Jourdan is also responsible for his lacks.

But, whatever it was, Jeremy is still on the go and should be appreciated!

His elimination was unexpected. That was the most disappointing point in the competition and I thought of that as the most stupid decision. Sending Jeremy home made me upset. He can do a lot better. And now, I'm hoping that he can make it to the comeback portion as he also participates with the photo shoos that will enable him to go back to the competition.

I must admit that his photo is really lack of something, very normal and plain. His shoot for the nail art print was really hard, I don't even know how to release that "booch" thing, and to blame Jourdan for adding the stress he's been feeling during the shoot.

 And man! He really cried!

Now Playing : New Perspective - Panic! At the Disco

: Boooooored

: Migs Lorenzana